upcoming 2009

2008

about love and life
some people come into my live and quickly go. some people come and uncertainly go. only few people stick right there back then for now and then. i have a good relationship though.
my senses represent the deepest part of what i feel. what is wrong yet feels right although my mouth wouldnt tell of it. i let other reflect with their senses whether it represents wrong or right.

one thing precious
im a quite messy person although when it comes to ruin everything, i always have the best way to clean it up to be a sparkling shine as it does so it could be worth for the mess itself.

for the 2009
ill always fulfill it completely. with the whole package of journey within precious, priceless, thoughtful, miserable, pathetic, delightful to wonderful unforgettable.

cheers everyone ^_^
wishing u all to be a better person.

my,, oh,, myself

how can i describe about myself? let me try,,though kinda hard to identify by my own self.

im a woman yet a mature girl i guess =) always trying to be kind, friendly, cheerful, and helpful. guess i already made it. i know it from some testimonials my friends gave to me. im 24,,one of my bitch called me FFN as Fun Fearless Ninis. tell u later bout this thing.
based on characteristics of me..im playful. i do have a lot of fun. but i wont make fun for some cases that i cant be. people saysi dont really care bout the commitment although i love to be in relationship. in my opinion, commitment is an important thing that i cant ruin if im there. having commitment with someone it's like one next level where i have to convince myself first cos it has a lot of risk. i have no faith to have it now. but i love to be in good relationship with everyone. dont get me wrong but i love to be surrounded with men, boys, or guys..yeah whatever u name it as long they have their tools, straight, nice, charming, and kind. i have no typical for them. just need to make them comfy, fit in, caring him not yet loving him.
i live my life as best as i can do. yes i through it with hurts, happiness, betrayer, tears, laughs, flirts, sucks and any other shit u could say. u know that life is not just about good cos sometimes shit happens when u least expected. but the point is not bout that. in my point of view is about how i could through bad times, struggling, standing and learning bout live a life itself.
im open minded realistic spontaneous unique. listen of what people say even though i choose to ignore a bitter issues about me. never pretend every single thing about me. my family, my besties, my bitches know me too well so i dont have no worry about people's fucking quote. do what i wanna do and take the risk by my own. have a different thought of something where people always saying that it's not right, it's human thing though.
sooo, that's my summary of myself. im not going to explain it spesific. cos the best thing is knowing me by urself. u wont never regret to know me =) cos im the angel of sins whose give u satisfaction with my own way.

*luv*

stagnation

what are u gonna do when ur life on stagnation?
im on stagnation. just do routine things. wake up, make coffee, turn on comp, have a little chit chat, browse, write, watch tv, take a shower, sleep, eat, and goes like that almost everyday. bored huh? HELL YEAH ! but i try to make it fun. i set my mind to not get bored with that routine. so i wont stuck in boredom. u know,now i really enjoy that routine shit. and lately, my days with the routine things still make my life doing great.
i make my own things in life =)
anyway, have u made it with ur own?
cheerssss ;p

lose

i find myself have flirt with him
based on satisfaction that makes me satisfy
my guilty pleasure that i cant describe
to have my own trophy
to win my own contest
once i can make it
and makes me to do that again
... at the end i loss the trophy
i cant make it more
the contest turns into feeling
flirt becomes love
im officially lose